I hate being a teenager. I hate it so much that I actually have to deal with friends and love life. Sometime, it's better if I just disappear for a day. I'm so glad that i'm actually starting to be happy again and feel alive without being forced too. I thought if I were actually dating some other guy, the pain would go away but it's still there and it's eating me alive.
Today was fun, chatted with him but then I realized that he was already happy with his life. He told me about the girl that he loved but they just broke up but he still loves her. I was always there listening to his stories and he too, listened to mine but today it was like the pain was actually eating my insides that I just wanted to cry. I'm trying to be a strong girl and next year's gonna be a new year. I won't ever wanna be the same old me. EVER!
So, anyway I've gotta get some rest. Later :)
Love,
Nurin :)
