Smiley breaky

Perfect storm

I hate being a teenager. I hate it so much that I actually have to deal with friends and love life. Sometime, it's better if I just disappear for a day. I'm so glad that i'm actually starting to be happy again and feel alive without being forced too. I thought if I were actually dating some other guy, the pain would go away but it's still there and it's eating me alive.

Today was fun, chatted with him but then I realized that he was already happy with his life. He told me about the girl that he loved but they just broke up but he still loves her. I was always there listening to his stories and he too, listened to mine but today it was like the pain was actually eating my insides that I just wanted to cry. I'm trying to be a strong girl and next year's gonna be a new year. I won't ever wanna be the same old me. EVER!

So, anyway I've gotta get some rest. Later :)

Love,
Nurin :)

Hell Hole

So, I was on the facebook today and i just discovered that FACEBOOK is so freaking slow! It's like, even when I press the "like" button, I still have to wait for a minute, Urgh! Anyway, this post is specially dedicated to all the GIRLS out there.

You see, I seriously think that you don't have to be so jealous if your boyfriend is hanging out with another girl, I mean it's not like he's gonna kiss her or something. I know sometimes you just have the urge to say " OMG! She's draping him like...drapes! Stupid, clingy drapes!? " But maybe you should just have to talk to him and tell him that you're better off without him and he doesn't need to feel as if you want him so bad.

The definition for high school is...H.E.L.L. If you don't know how to be tough and stay strong in the hell hole, you better just shift to other places like antartica or finland xD So, how is high school treating you guys? All i can say that, you have to be out spoken and don't EVER be at the bottom of the list, EVER! 

This is because practically the "wannabes" are gonna ruin your life and trust me, it's not pretty. In my school, all the boring and dull students ALWAYS stay at the bottom in EVERYTHING and no one cares about their opinions so..do ya wanna be like them? It's your choice babes.

I mean, you don't have to be a spoilt brat that brings extremely expensive purse, bag or maybe in my case rich kids that can't get enough ofphones and laptops to be showed off :) I'm not like those spoilt tycoons' daughters that wanna have all the cool and new gadgets..I just go easy with my parents and life and I definitely ,DON'T EVER care about the rich kids so if you're one of em' then i would probably defenestrate you :) XX

I have to go now since i have other stuff to do so BYE!

Xoxo love you from pluto and back,

sincerely NURIN

Heart-broken

Retaliate

Good morning Hu-MANS! Today was fun at school with friends. I've realized that I love them so much! LOL ;) I'm still here, patheticly waiting a message from him. I'm so corny sometimes and I'm sorry for that. What can I say? I'm a breathing teenage girl.

Today had made my heart feel lighter and thanks to that, apparently I've nothing to write about. In deep thoughts, I wonder why do the popular screwed up punks and brats in my school feel like they're too good to be friends with. I mean it's not like their parents are billionaires or something in fact, they're not even rich. The conclusion is that popular kids are just too snobbish because they're poor and to cover that "poorness" they bully others. Urgh! It's repulsive!

Anyhow, it's getting late and my eyes are screaming and I just have to go to bed to rest myself off this teenage things.

Love,
Nurin ;)

Breaking again :/

Why was I so stupid? Why did I do the same mistake all over again? He sent me the message in march and I fucking just replied it today in October! And I've been blaming him for that thinking that he forgot to reply but all along it was my fault.

Dear you-know-who,

I'm so sorry for doing that. I told ya, I push people away. But thanks to you, I've gotten better and tried pleasing others. After what happened for the second time, I didn't expect you to wait for me. You're far away but I always know that you're with me, right here, right now. Thanks dude :) I just hope that we could be like the same way we were. But the reality is, we can't and you know it. You are the most patient guy that I've ever met. There's not a day that I don't think about you. My life was just black and white but you brought rainbows and painted colours to it. I miss you so much :/

Love,
Nurin.

So I guess this blog is all about him. I broke him and he was patient. So bye guys!

Thinking it through

Hey guys! I know it's a little late right now for me to write blog because it's already 1.31 in the morning but I don't care. I've to go to school tomorrow but I can't look at the popular bitches in my school. They are the most conceited creatures that I've ever met. Seriously!

So moving on, I think life isn't that tough when you know that you are loved and there's someone who wants to be there for you through thick and thin. I'd good friends but I was careless and I was loved by someone but I pushed him away. I always do. In school or everywhere, people would just think I'm happy go lucky like hobbos but the reality is...I'm not.

I'm not saying that I don't appreciate life, I do but sometimes you have obstacles that are just so hard to jump over them. I miss him. I miss those days when I knew that he was always there for me. Those days are over and I'm moving on. I know I'm not perfect but at least I'm real and not plastic. I know I've made mistakes but things happen and people change. So please hear me up.

I can't show ma feelings through speaking but I certainly can show it through blogs and songs. So, I've gotta go, my eyes are gonna shut soon. Goodnight!

love,
Nurin.